Something Bad Happened, Didn’t It?
Ayla
I knew it. Deep down, I did, but I needed to hear it.
Monica’s location was on the dance floor.
Thane’s closing of the bond.
Raven’s silence.
Monica’s phone was out of order.
The blood on Thane’s clothing.
She was gone. My first real friend here was gone.
I take a step back as Thane reaches for me.
“Ayla..” Thane’s voice is quiet, hesitant. He must see on the outside what is happening on the outside.
My breathing becomes hard and fast.
My chest hurts.
Fear sets in
My head is dizzy.
My heart is racing.
Why am I shaking? Why am I so cold?
My vision flickers.
Thane’s voice goes in and out. Is Cyrus here? Who is he talking to?
I’m across the room. How did I get across the room?
I’m nauseated and sweating profusely.
Monica’s gone and she isn’t coming back.
Monica’s gone and she isn’t coming back.
“Monica’s gone and she isn’t coming back.”
I’m confused
I already know this.
Where did
she
They took her.
I am frantically shaking my head. It doesn’t clear my vision.
There’s a noise behind me.
I whirl and stumble.
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Something Bad Happened. Didn’t
Thane’s here, Thane’s here. It’s okay. He’s here.
No…no he isn’t supposed to be here. Tessa said her brother was at home with her parents.
Why isn’t he home with his parents?
Where is Tessa Where is Monica…?
1 gag on the stomach acid filling my mouth,
1 am sobbing. My chest hurts.
There is wailing.
There can’t be wailing. Tessa didn’t cry.
“Tessa didn’t cry. She fought the whole way…she didn’t…she didn’t cry. She didn’t cry.”
“Ayla…what?…. What? Tessa? Tessa?…You mean my sister? What Ayla? My sister? What about my sister?”
My head is pounding-
My chest is throbbing.
I can’t get enough air.
I’m losing my mind
“ARAMANA PLEASE!”
She’s
my wolf.
She’s my wolf.
“Don’t hurt her….Don’t hurt my w
my wolf.”
The corner is dark..
So is the other one.
I heard whispers. I heard it. I can hear it.
“Who said that?”
“Who said what?” Somebody is repeating what I am saying. Am I echoing?
My body is tight.
Why can’t
* I lift my arms?
Something is heavy.
Where is Thune?
I’m drowning.
I can’t breathe.
“Where is Monica? Somebody is asking. Are they asking me?
*Monica’s dead. Monica’s dead. Didn’t you hear me?”.
Maybe they will quit as
asking.
Something Bad Happened. Didn’t I?
Tessa is dead.
My family is dead.
Monica is dead.
Why are they all dead?
“Why is everybody dead? Who’s dead? Everybody. They’re all dead.”
I don’t want die.
‘t want to die.
I don’t
I have a pup. I can’t die.
Please help me.
Conversations are happening around me. They all sound like me.
“Ayla.. little wolf, please.”
Somebody is crying loudly.
Somebody is cursing.
A she–wolf is saying my name.
right here. I’m right here.
I’m right
My body is heavy.
I’m trying to move but I can’t.
Somebody is holding me.
Somebody’s hands are on me.
Don’t touch me.
Don’t touch me…
You have no right to touch me.
You can’t touch me.
Let go of me.
Let go of me.
I can feel my mental barrier pounding.
I have claws.
I can’t breathe.
I can’t breathe.
I don’t want to die.
I have a family.
I have a mate
Something Bad Happened, Didn’t I?.
I have a pup.
I don’t want to die.
“I’m not leaving her. He isn’t leaving
Who’s going to blow?
My vision is blue.
The room is spinning.
My body is tingling.
who?
It feels like there are bugs crawling on me.
My arms are blue…are these my arms?
There are arms around my arms. My back is heavy.
I can’t move.
Why is Cyrus yelling at me?
Where did he come from?
My back is rumbling. I feel the movement throughout my whole body
My eyes are heavy.
I turn my head to the left.
I swear there was somebodyiover there.
“No…no…no…this way.” My head is turned forward.
The rumbling intensifies.
I try and lift.
my arms and can’t.
I can’t move.
Why can’t I move?
Are they trying to take me again?
Did they take Monica?
Where is Monica?
Are they taking me?
I won’t let them take her.
I won’t let them take me.
“She’s amping up again!” Somebody is yelling.
They are trying to take me again.
They’re going to pay.
They’re going to pay.
Something Blad Happened. Didn’t I?
There is growling.
I hear snarling.
My vision is blue.
The weight is gone..
I can’t feel the rumbling, I can hear it though.
It’s getting louder.
My vision is getting cloudy.
I’m taking deep breaths,
Who is talking about breathing?
I’m exhausted.
Tired
I’m so tired.
The rumbling is back.
My chest is warm.
My back is warm.
“Her wolf can’t get through? Who’s? Who’s can’t?
“Shahssshhh…” Whispers in my ear on repeat.
I’m moving slowly.
Am I falling?
I’m moving down.
Enlow.
I can’t see anything. Everything is black.
The rumble intensifies.
It fech a good
My body is relaxing
I’m leaning against something hand.
“Eight bere little woll. Go to sleep”
Sleep sounds nler
Air be all going to sleep?
Something Bad Happened. DiÁNT AT
1 feel warm and fuzzy all over.
Something warm and wet is touching my
Thane’s here. It will all be okay.
He’s here.
y cheek.
Always and forever
He will take care of me.
I woke up in the same meadow I met Aramana in a few months ago when I was put to sleep in Eric’s clinic. I look around as I sit up and see my beautiful white wolf sitting by the creek. The tall grass field and flowers gently sway in the breeze and the long willow tree behind her makes her
look majestic
I run over to her sitting by the water. She slowly turns her head toward me. “There you are. I was wondering how long it would take for you to get here,” she speaks to me as 1 sit next to her.
“How long did it take me to get here?” I asked her confused.
“A long time. I could’t get to you. I haven’t experienced it before.” She whispers.
“Experienced what? What’s going on?” I’m confused and trying to comb through my memories.
“I tried to force a shift and couldn’t. It felt like you were shielding me away from you.” Aramana explains.
“Can we do that? Some internal shield?” She is studying the water. It is peaceful and serene like her.
1 take her words in and have no idea what she is talking about, but I can feel it. The low lining dread. My memories are foggy
“Something bad happened, didn’t it?” I ask her in a hushed whisper, slowly replaying bits and pieces of the night.
“ses, child. Something bad happened. We have a lot to learn.”
“About what happened or our gifting?”
“Bork”
Chapter Comments
i could feel the Anxiety building in the words heartbreaking
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internal dialogue as she experiences this trigger feels very real. My heart breaks for her.
