But I pushed the Damn Button!
Ayla
I’ve been giving Thane reassurances that we are going to find those responsible. Building him up as much as I can, but I feel like I am barely holding it together. I’m determined but downright terrified at the same time. One minute I feel confident in what I am doing and the next, I’m doubting every decision I make as Luna.
ife had an easy button.
“Psstt..our Luna is losing it I think.” Damon whispers, which is pointless because I can hear him anyway.
I looked up to see the three watching me as I mimicked pushing the imaginary easy button in front of me.
“I pressed the easy button. Everything from here on out…..easy.” Tyler starts nodding his head with his dark eyebrows raised up like he just deemed me crazy then gets back to work on his laptop. Thane frowns at me before getting up and walking toward me.
“I think I need to get your Luna home. She’s seeing things.” He scoops me up quickly, causing me to yelp as he holds me firmly against him. I need to slightly lean back to accommodate my growing stomach. A cute little bump that I catch myself holding without realizing. I also catch Thane often staring at my stomach, listening to our pup’s rate intently. His paranoia is in overdrive right now. I’m not sure what to do about it
either.
He carries me unto the elevator which now smells overpowering thanks to the amount of disinfectant used at Damon’s order. The thought of Cyrus and Raven mated now makes me smile so wide my cheeks hurt.
“I love to see you smile Little Wolf. What has you so happy?”
“I was thinking about Raven and Cyrus. I’m happy they finally mated.”
“May the fates have mercy on us all. I have a feeling that those two mated could be worse than them wanting to murder each other.” My eyes widen at that because I can’t imagine it getting worse.
“They’re going tomorrow to blow a hole in the ground in preparation of your “heat hotel” or whatever you’re calling it. Hopefully they don’t kill each other with C4.”
“Raven told me to change the name so when they answer the phone, they have to refer to themselves as the ‘horny hotline‘ but I can’t justify changing the name to ‘horny hostel‘ for that laugh.” We both laugh as we head out to the car. We needed it. It has been too serious too long.
I fall asleep on the drive home and slightly stir when Thane lifts me out of the car. I register the scent of my nest and Thane’s warm body coming up behind me. Both of us are too tired to even take our clothes off.
“We really should get ready for bed.” Thane mumbles in my hair behind me, but squeezing me to him tighter.
“Growly growl growl.” I say while yawning, causing Thane to laugh in my hair.
“Why…are you…saying that?” It takes him a while to stop laughing.
“I’m too tired to growl so I’m just saying it. I’m growling at your suggestion. I’m not getting up.” And I didn’t. I fell asleep blissfully warm in Thane’s arms.
“Why can’t we run off the grounds?” I asked my mother repeatedly, but she kept refusing to answer me.
“Because Ayla, we are not to run into the forest. Other wolves could find us here and we don’t want them here.
“Why?”
“Because we don’t. No more questions.” My mother’s tone made no room for arguments. I would be in trouble if I kept pestering her.
“I want to run on the mountain.”
“We live along the coldest mountain in the entire region. You think it’s cold here at the estate, you wouldn’t make it out on that mountain. My mother grumbles as I turn headed back into the house trying not to get caught talking under my breath.
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But Fusted the San Batser
seat you…” by muter trails off when she sees my father sitting at the dining table.
” and wits My father ads as my mother comes before him with her hands folded in front of her. I don’t understand why she always
stands The Stut
“satning” She states to my father. I wonder why she didn’t tell on me?
I don’t know why, but I need to get off the grounds. It isn’t enough room. My wolf wants us to be in the forest 1 yell out, wurned that I had that kind of sertion. It isn’t like me to talk back to my parents, but I’m feeling agitated.
“la, are you fering agitated? Perhaps even itchy and hot? My father asks and I look down, realizing I am scratching my arms. My body is Berg warm and panfall My beancate picks up and my wolf is howling in my head.
ages I am I say quietly.
“I think you’s going to shift thy father says quiety and calmly. I don’t know how he can be so calm when I feel like I am going to combust.
“Take deep breath and come outside, Follow us outside. It will be okay.” My mother nods to me and takes me by the arm, leading me back
This is it. This is what I have been waiting for. I am excited, terrified and nauseated at the same time. I can do this.
“Mom, what’s going on My litle sister exits the front doors later, likely frightened by my appearance.
“You sister is going to have her first shift. Her eyes go wide and covers her mouth.
1st to stifle and feel dizzy. My vision blurs and 1 hear my wolf howling in pain. My limbs feel like they are moving on their own. Pain lances through my back, my ribs, down my body. It’s everywhere,
My chest tightens and squeezes as I hit my knees. I can’t breathe. My family are talking but I can’t understand what they are saying. The pain mixed with the Gobertson &oesn’t allow me to register the words they are speaking,
My limbs start to contort as my vision swirls. My stomach aches as I throw myself forward involuntarily, crying out in pain. Instead of my hands hunting the ground, I had paws, 1 kick out my back legs and they land with a thud. Pain lances through my body but then starts to fade. My vision sharpens and I can see further, sharper, and more clearly,
1 shifted. I just completed my first shift. I look down at my paws and see snow white fur. I’m a white woll
Wat, I’m a white wilt.
I am pited andke gorging and flailing my arms around me. Thane is awake in an instant grabbing me and seeing if I am okay. I’m not sure that I
Iver dreamed of my first shift. I barely remembered it before, but I remember it now like it just happened. I don’t know how it happened or why it was so mixed no belonet
“Probably the polvon and the trauma Ayla. Now, tell me everything”
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