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“it means that you came to me two fucking years ago, weak and fucking broken. I was a good friend to you, I helped you get over how much those bastards hurt you and then we had to come here and 1 actually thought the first day when you brushed Ethan off, that you weren’t going to fall back. But there you go now, you as good as forgave him, giving him smiled and thinking of how ADORABLE he is.” I stared shocked but he continued “After all he did to you that’s what you think about when he comes to mind. Soon you’re going to go running back to him like a silly little mate and go back to being the pathetic, Naive girl you were and still are and he’d going to hurt you again and you’ll come crying back to me. You think you’re tough lux? well you’re not. Look at you now, going back to the mate that rejected you. Fucking pathetic”
He finished and took a deep breath while I stared at him in shock and the others stared at me.
It wasn’t after a few minutes did Adrian finally talk “Xavier that was harsh man I-
“No don’t” I interrupted him, keeping my eyes on jason who I noticed had a hint of regret in his eyes. “I guess the truth is finally out”
Xavier didn’t say anything, his whole body still “You know i actually believed that two years ago you were the only one who didn’t see me like that Pathetic” 1 let out a chuckle “looks like I was wrong How long have you bottled this all up for Xavier? Since i came to your house? I bet Ethan was just tip of the ice burg “I shook my head and laughed dryly “God 1 am such an IDIOT
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“Must be a load of your back to finally tell me what I am in your eyes.” I said through clenched teeth. “Well let me tell you something Xavier. You don’t know a thing of what I’m going through.“1 walked closer to him “Imagine having those god damned tingles every time you touch someone and have to pull back. “I took another step “Imagine fighting with your wolf every fucking day because she wants nothing but to forgive him and freaking jump him each time she sees him” Another step “Imagine watching someone else walk out of their room in their clothes and know that he prefers someone else.” I “said remembering Whitney, I hadn’t told them about it so I heard a few gasps and intakes of breath, Xavier gulped “Imagine being forced to hear
comments about marts knowing your own rejected you” I was now face to face with him“Imagine knowing that in two years not once has he tried to search for you because all you were to him was a pathetic naive silly little mare” I quoted him and he flinched I pulled back and looked at him, not with just anger anymore, with hurt
“And now Imagine, that above all that, after learning to at least block him out so you don’t get hurt. Your own friend, one of the few people you depend on and trust” I took a shaky breath “ends up being the first one to hurt you since you came back” 1 bit my lip and shook my head. I walked past him but stopped but didn’t turn around just tilted my head backwards and glanced at him
“Don’t worry I won’t be a Problem to you anymore. I’m sorry I was such a burden I never realized” with that I walked away leaving them all behind.
I ran towards the pack house not wanting them to catch up. I ran through the living room and stopped dead in my tracks when three large figures blocked my path. Peter, Alan, and Ethan
“Wow where’s the rush?” Alan asked
lux what’s wrong?
Erhan asked taking a closer step towards me, no i couldn’t deal with him, not now. I pushed past them and ran upstairs to go to my room. 1 spotted Keith coming out of his room.
I don’t know what came over me at that second but when Keith saw me and looked at me alarmed, I couldn’t help myself. I ran to him and hugged him.
I wanted to cry, I felt like crying, but the tears wouldn’t come. I don’t know why I couldn’t cry but I was shaking with hurt and anger and in seconds, after recovering from the shock, Keith hugged me back and brushed my hair soothingly.
I felt myself being lifted from the floor and laid on a bed. I didn’t argue and just kept holding Keith as he wrapped his arms around me and said comforting. words. He didn’t ask what was wrong and for that I was grateful he seemed to really know what to do.
I felt my eyes close as i got sleepy and right before I fell asleep i thought
who would have thought in the end Keith would be the one comforting me?
Xavier’s P.O.V.
“Don’t worry I won’t be a Problem to you anymore. I’m sorry I was such a burden, I never realized” She said walking away.
Oh shit. Oh shit what had I done? How could I say things like that to her?
Before I knew it I was running to the house after her only to be punched and sent flying on the dirt.
“What did you do?” A very angry Ethan stood in front of me, his eyes black, his stance stiff. Who did he think he is? He has nothing to do with Lily and
“I’d kick your ass for that but I don’t have time for you” I said getting up but he blocked my path to the house.
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“What did you do to her?” he asked angrily, glaring at me. Anyone would have flinched under his gaze but I was alpha too, he didn’t have an effect on the
“Move” I said through clenched teeth.
“If you hurt her I’m gonna kill you” Ethan said angrily. That made me snap. how dare he even mention me hurting her when he was the one to hurt her by rejecting her.
“You don’t have the right to talk” I seethed “you’re the asshole that hurt her so badly so don’t even try to say thing the moment I said that his fist connected with my jaw again but I was prepared this time and only turned my head.
1 growled, my wolf taking control, and punched him back. In seconds i was crouched defensively in front of Ethen growling with the other guys behind me. he was the same with Alan and Peter flanking him.
“Been wanting to do this for a while” I said through clenched teeth as I glared at him
“Kicking your ass is gonna be fun” he answered but just then Keith appeared at the door, he took one look at us and took a deep breath before standing between us.
“you know I’d like nothing more than to hurt both of you” he snarled at us and then looked at me “But First, i wanna losow why the hell did my sister just come to me sad and hurt he turned his gaze to Ethan “And I would like to remind you that by hurting each other your hurting Lily. So could you both stop being selfish bastards”
“I stared at him, knowing he was right. i was being selfish. God, when did I start being such an insensitive jerk? When had I ever hurt Lily?
Her expression after I’d snapped at her was heart wrenching. I regretted the words as soon as they came out of my mouth and just looking at her hurt expression tore me apart.
I didn’t know she went through so much, I wasn’t thinking, of course it would be hard to be around her mate I didn’t have the right to be so mad. It’s just, seeing her being nice to him and hearing her thoughts just brought me an edge. Lily was never a mean person and I knew it took a lot of her to be mean to Ethan, why hadn’t I understood that before?
because you were so god damn jealous that’s why I told myself and I knew it was the truth. I couldn’t help it, I loved lux and wanted to be with her. But every time I’d get close to opening the subject someone would interrupt.
Ethan had calmed down and Keith was looking at me expectantly “Are you going to tell us what happened or not?”
“Had a fight now I want to talk to Lily so move” I started walking but Keith grabbed my arm and I growled.
“She’s asleep now in my room. Save it for another day” he said. I was hesitant but nodded and watched as Ethan and his pack went inside. I was going to walk in but I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned to see a very angry looking Jacob
“We need to talk” he said and I followed him and the others to the woods so no one will hear us. “All I’m going to say is how could you? did you oven hear what you said to her?”
I looked away guiltily, they were right. What is aid was out of line, I made it sound like I put up with her and thought she was pathetic. A total lie, I couldn’t imagine my life without Lily.
I couldn’t explain it to anyone, the way I felt about her. I didn’t want her hurt again. When she only talked on email and got close she told me how they treated her, how she felt that maybe they were right with what they said. I didn’t want to see her go back to the way she was when she first came to live with us. I can’t tell you how many times I’d walk by her room and hear her listening to ‘nobody’s home‘ by avril lavigne as she tried to hide her cries
It tore me apart to see her like that, I was scared for her and add that to jealousy and you get the messed up things I said.
“Dude did you even hear yourself? Did you see how hurt she was?” Jim asked
“I just…snapped guys. I don’t know what came over me” I said scratching the back of my head.
“We all know what came over you Xavier.” Adrian said angrily “it’s as clear as day”
“But frankly I don’t care” Jacob said “We’re supposed to protect her, not cause her more pain. Thought you, of all people, would know that”
My head snapped up in anger “I do know that” I said clenching my lists “You know I will always protect her no matter what!” I looked away. “it’s lux we’re talking about here. You guys know how much I’m protective of her. I regret every fucking word I said, and I wish I could take them back but I can’t”
Jacob sighed and took a few steps towards me “Look you need to talk to her, after what you said she thinks you always saw her as pathetic. So make it right”
I nodded, trying to think of what to say to her already. She had every right to hate me now. God, just thinking about what I said…unforgivable
“leave it for tomorrow and lets all get a god night’s sleep” he added and I nodded.
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Lily’s POV.
I woke up in the middle of the night to the feeling of someone lifting me. I kept my eyes closed and snuggled into the warm chest.
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